I don't know exactly when it started but I do know when it ended. Bubba was always my heart. No matter what, he always looked out for me. He had so much going for him. We were talking about opening a detailing shop, he was really good at detailing cars, he spent many years doing this and he enjoyed it.
My son would have never wanted it to end like it did. He tried so hard to stay clean for me and himself. Drug Addiction is a Disease. It takes only one time using. Some of them make it but most of them don't and my son was one who didn't make it.
Do you know what it is like for a Mother or Father to find their child dead? There are no words for it.
Bubba didn't mean for it to happen. No one means for it to happen, but sooner or later it will happen if you are doing drugs. Bubba was and still is my life. I just have to do things different now. He will always have his birthday cake, gifts, Christmas, all the things we do throughout the year. Only thing is, he's not here to enjoy it.
The pain is unbearable.
I miss my son so much. It's still so fresh in my mind and always will be. I'm still waiting for him to walk through the door.
If you are reading this and you have a problem with drugs I beg you to get help. Don't think you can do it on your own. You can't fight a monster.
Don't let the people who love you go through what I must now face the rest of my life. And believe me it's not about me. Stay away from DRUGS. They will take everything away from not only you but all who love you, and I know you mean the world to someone.
The drugs got the best of him but I will never forget the best of him without the drugs!
Your Dad and I miss and love you Bubba, you will be forever in our hearts.
Love You Always,
Mom